Hello there!

These are the tales of a single-again, 20-something-year-old, "sassy chef". I am on the road to self-(RE)discovery after the devastation of my divorce. I want to know who I am, what I want out of life, and how to get it. Things may be hard right now, but the show must go on, so I have decided to blog about every second of it. Who needs a therapist anyways, when I have you guys?!? :)

So, here I am...

Let me start off by saying...I feel that a LOT of people truly misunderstand me, but those that get me REALLY get me...

I am easy to confide in, trustworthy, and can keep a secret for ages! Once you win me over you have a friend for a lifetime...it's just winning me over that's the struggle, for I am not easily impressed...



WHICH BRINGS ME TO MY NEXT POINT...



I struggle with being too up front with people. I usually don't know when to keep my opinons to myself until it's too late. This is something I have had to mindfully and continuously work on throughout my life and it is still a work in progress.

I can be extremely indecisive in just about every aspect that one's life can cover, swinging back and forth quite frequently, but once I have made up my mind, that's it! It is made up!



I am quite OCD about certain quirky things, such as hanging all of my clothes in a color coordinated fashion, turning the volume on the radio only to increments of 5, and cursing those that don't shut the shower curtain, among other weird things that I don't know how to get over.



I have a witty, or just plain sarcastic, sense of humor that a lot of people don't get unless they know me...my life is like one big inside joke and you may never know why I am laughing. Or why I say the things I say. But I have my reasons. Trust me, I'm not crazy :)



I have a BIG heart and am very compassionate toward others. If only a girl could have the time and financial freedom to live off volunteer work alone!



I LOVE to cook and if you ask me, that is about the only true talent or creativity I posess, though my mom would say differently because all moms are supposed to.



I am obsessed with sour gummy worms and popcorn flavored jelly beans, but am not really big into too many other sweets.



The sounds of a ferocious thunderstorm lull me into the best nights of sleep and I am an early riser by choice and by circumstance, but definitely not by nature.



Lastly, but not least... I serve an AWESOME God and I desire to be close to Him more than anything else in this world!!! He is my EVERYTHING!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Normal again?

Sometimes I swear I am the only person who feels this way.

It doesn't really matter HOW I feel.

I just know that I am alone.

But then I stop and realize there are millions of other women who have conquered the world of divorce while grabbing life by the throat and taking what they want out of it.

I want to be one of THOSE women!

Sadly, I am not quite there. I am just the same old "Tiffy" who is trying my hardest to trust in God with each step I take, carefully avoiding the land mines that all too frequently I find myself encompassed with. I whole-heartedly believe that I too will get there, someday. My dad said I would simply have to find a new "normal", which makes perfect sense to me. 
When I asked when I would feel normal again, "Katz" told me to call her next Spring because she swears I will be "awesome"! I may not see that in the here and now, but something inside of me knows that she is correct.


So, for the time being I will hold onto that, while marking down the days on my calendar...
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